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I think somethings wrong with me!
Lately, every little thing makes me mad!
I even express how mad I am by venting to my best friend
And the worst part is how many horrible words I use to do so!
I keep feeling like I don't belong in my family at all
I'm just so different from them
I cant even be happy in my own home..
I'll start to have fun but after less than five minutes..It just goes away
I seriously wanna cuss people out
And when my family makes jokes about me..
They never bothered me till now
I mean they hardly ever do it but once they do I just wanna SLAP them (mainly my sister..she's the worst)
I don't even know if im having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of feeling worthless
Sometimes I really do wanna die
I hate the world that much
But then I don't because I don't want to screw up my family's life.
I feel so freaking LOST!
I want to live my life and be happy,
But at the same time I don't
Nobody in my house even notices when I'm crying
And then they realize it when I text a family member about it
I really don't know what's making me angryier..
The fact that I'm always being picked on
Being accused of being lazy
Having to be depended on too much
Or when everyone looks at me like I'm nuts when I just say what I personally like.
For example
I tell them I honestly don't mind gay couples at all,
Or that I want to be goth
I'm looked at a though I'm a freak by my own family
They're even being stereotypical about it
They think I'm possessed
They think I'm evil
My mom once said she bets she'll see me on drugs for real
They don't listen to my protests.
Some said that being wierd bothers me,
When I could honestly care less
Thats how I feel..
A worthless outcast with everything she could want BUT love and support from her family
Lately, every little thing makes me mad!
I even express how mad I am by venting to my best friend
And the worst part is how many horrible words I use to do so!
I keep feeling like I don't belong in my family at all
I'm just so different from them
I cant even be happy in my own home..
I'll start to have fun but after less than five minutes..It just goes away
I seriously wanna cuss people out
And when my family makes jokes about me..
They never bothered me till now
I mean they hardly ever do it but once they do I just wanna SLAP them (mainly my sister..she's the worst)
I don't even know if im having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of feeling worthless
Sometimes I really do wanna die
I hate the world that much
But then I don't because I don't want to screw up my family's life.
I feel so freaking LOST!
I want to live my life and be happy,
But at the same time I don't
Nobody in my house even notices when I'm crying
And then they realize it when I text a family member about it
I really don't know what's making me angryier..
The fact that I'm always being picked on
Being accused of being lazy
Having to be depended on too much
Or when everyone looks at me like I'm nuts when I just say what I personally like.
For example
I tell them I honestly don't mind gay couples at all,
Or that I want to be goth
I'm looked at a though I'm a freak by my own family
They're even being stereotypical about it
They think I'm possessed
They think I'm evil
My mom once said she bets she'll see me on drugs for real
They don't listen to my protests.
Some said that being wierd bothers me,
When I could honestly care less
Thats how I feel..
A worthless outcast with everything she could want BUT love and support from her family
Yo~!
I've been absent for a few months but I am now on vacation! A lot has happened. I went to Metrocon last month and I took a bunch of photos. I went with a friend and his mom did my hair (Not many people really liked it though) but yeah I tried to ignore em. And he teased me so much about bloody ponies that people kept trying to sell them to me! AGGH!
Anyway my IG has the photos, if you want to follow me note me. I bought a Jojo keychain, an Ichigo Kurosaki body pillow (Im not allowed to buy the girl ones sadly), A Shizuo plushie, A Hitsugaya necklace, and a limited Akame Ga Kill Akame weapon set you can wear as a necklace. My friend bought me
In an Art Raffle
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Doing a shuffle tag, 25 songs. ~YuriRenard (https://www.deviantart.com/yurirenard) tagged me, so here we go! This'll be from my outdated ipod instead of my PC since it overheated ;n;
1. Crossfade - Already Gone
2. A Day To Remember - I'm Made Of Wax, Larry, What Are You Made Of?
3. Falling In Reverse - Caught Like A Fly
4. GARNiDELiA - Ambiguous (Opening to The Irregular Magic High School)
5. The Plot In You - Filth
6. Dangerkids - Countdown
7. A Day To Remember - Since U Been Gone
8. Front Porch Step - The Day You Took Good Away
9. Citizen - Figure You Out
10. Authors - Coming Home
11. My Chemical Romance - Welcome To The Black Parade
12. Breaking Benjamin - Blow
Happy New Year!
Hope everyone had a nice start. I didn't do anything special, just watch House M.D with my dad. But I have some resolutions this year. I want to be happier and fight my depression. But most of all I want to just have a really really fun year. That's all really :)
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