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Good News: I beat Pokemon X
Now on to what I originally wanted to say yesterday night.

I know I'm inactive, but truth be told, I've lost my muse to create art. The ideas may be there, but the willpower to try them, and the feeling of accomplishment is just gone. It's not because I'm lazy, and it's not always because of school. Of course, my enemy Drama is always around, but it's not involving me entirely anymore either. All I do is create fanfiction, but still all too rare.

    I don't know if it is art block, considering the long time span. I'm actually giving up what I begin, and well, giving up on everything. There I admit it, whatever life throws at me negatively, I no longer express my feelings through art. Instead, like a child, I shut myself from literally everyone I know, pretend nothing's wrong, and play video games or watch anime. And no, I am not having fun (unless you count the christmas gifts) but instead sinking into fantasy. What's sad is I told myself when I was 10 that I'd never do that again. No more video game addictions, no One-Track-Mindedness. When I was 14, it was not to shut people out. My New Years Resolution is/was to be more like my old self. Friendly, Kind, Tough, yet able to feel joy and show it. To stop cutting everyone off.

I don't know who'll see this, but I am sorry for a depressing update. I know I said I'd note people, but it's been far too long. I mean, yeah I've used skype, but no one is usually available. So every night is a silent tantrum, could be scratching out everything I sketched to writing literal nonsense. And guys, I am NOT back at school yet. My break...was boring and saddening with only a bit of fun.